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Mixed Nuts [Feb. 12th, 2009|10:53 pm]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |exhaustedexhausted]
[Funky Grooves |God is and Astronaut]

Whoa, been a while since I last posted an entry. A little over 2 years to be exact. Lets see, I'm still here plus my lovely very very extremely good looking twin boys (and super smart to). Going to school, finally, and doing something other than waiting for the next time to get waisted. My life is f*cking crazy, stressful, overwhelming, sleep deprived, and lacking in the social outings department, but I can say I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm freakin' happy! Go figure.

Well, here's to another 2 years and see where life takes us next.
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Give up [Feb. 4th, 2006|02:30 pm]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |enviousenvious]
[Funky Grooves |Death Cab For Cutie- When Soul Meets Body]

I do!
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V is very very ... Extraordinary [Dec. 15th, 2005|08:46 am]
butressofwinser
I'm hanging out in my life skills class with one of my best Job Corps. buddies. Shala came in the same time as I did so she is my input sister and they say.

I go home tomorrow!
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Get Focused [Dec. 14th, 2005|09:03 am]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |gigglygiggly]
[Funky Grooves |My Chinchilla]

Today, Tommorrow and a 8:00am wake up and I'll be heading home for 2 and a half weeks. I cant wait. I cant wait to see my favorite person in the world.... Zach. MERRY CHRISTMAS ZACH! We'll hug, cry, and get drunk. I love that kid.

I remeber when I first met Zach. It was in Jessica's Garrage and we sat cross from eachother. While the bowl was passing around Jessica, Adam, Zach and I he turned to me and said.... "Nice Hair", and I said "Thanks". Who would have known at that point Zach and I would be friends for so long. Through good times and bad we were there for eachother willing to give open arms and advice (wether it be bad or good). I dont recall us being mad at eachother for more than one drunkin' night.

Zach, I love you like a really cool gay cousin... In-law. May you have an awesome Christmas and know how much you mean to me.


Friends for life, Emily
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Subject to Change [Dec. 13th, 2005|07:59 am]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |crankycranky]
[Funky Grooves |Aus Rotten]

It is clear that I must find my other half.

I find myself thinking of the past a lot. Wishing I was back there were there was no worries, only drunkin' parties. Its like everybody left me when I moved. My friends for years turned their backs on me. Why? Are they better than me.

My inner soul is sad. I'm sad. I need to find something that completes me. I had an emptiness that was filled by drugs and alcohol. I cant do those things anymore. I'm making a life for myself. Going to school.

What I really want to do is make my own Comic Book. I want to be an artist for a living. what if i'm not good enough. The things in my past inspired me to draw what I knew. I know nothing now. I see nothing now. I'm so overwhelmed. I have so much going on but still nothing.

There is 2 type of people. One who never feels alone because they are so damn cool they never can be alone, I was one of those. Now I'm the other. Alone in my own aftermath.

Grow Up
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Filling time slots. [May. 22nd, 2005|02:24 am]
butressofwinser
Yeeeaaaahhhhh


I'm really really sick. I have strep throat. Its bad. I had a really high fever and I didnt eat for 3 days. The doctor was like "who have you been kissing", I just shrugged and smiled. Just thinking in my head... "which asshole gave me this shit... it wasnt him cause that was like a week ago... oh it had to be him. Fuck that guy, HE'S CUT OFF"!~ Then they gave me a shot in the ass. The needle part didnt hurt, but there was this really bad sting afterward that made me walk around the room rubbing my ass yelling "ssssssss oh, sssssssssssss ow, ssssssssss eh". And then I felt all better.

When I got home I ate pancakes and eggs and bacon. awesome.

I've been talking to Beth almost everyday. We're "going out". Except we dont do anything we didnt do before and we pick up guys together. I fucking lover her to death. She's my best east coast friend.

I have a new dog, hes a beagle. He is getting bigger everday. its weird. The thing is, I dont know how to potty train him so I leave him outside during the day to play with our other dog and bring him in to hang out at night when it starts to get cold. I would like for him to walk around everywhere and know he's not going to poop in my shoe.

I have one step left before i enter Job Corps so .... But I'm not going untill Beth comes visit me cause that should be really soon.
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after my own heart [Apr. 26th, 2005|12:53 am]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |determineddetermined]
[Funky Grooves |I wanna be sedated]

Sober for 3 1/2 months. eh!
Cant wait to be back in Bremerton. Soon! I'll get high with my friends and it will be like the first time.
Just dont fuck with my head cause I'll be gone... and happy.
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(no subject) [Apr. 23rd, 2005|05:37 am]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |anxiousanxious]
[Funky Grooves |Greese]

Virginia sucks. I cant stay here very much longer without going totally insain. Before I left my uncle said then "when I got a career" I could go back home. I cant stay here long enough to go to school, and I had my jobs. So, I'm going to job corps. I'll get 1200 when I finish it, which is enough to get a ticket back and have a little pit extra money.

I cant wait!~ Thanks alot you Bremerton Fuckers!~ why are you making me miss you so much. I wanted to get out of Bremerton. Not beg to come back.

Lets face it, I'm just another Bremerlow!~

Whats cooler then being cool....





if you said Jaimie Hall then you kick fucking rock hard ass!~
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Living Space [Apr. 21st, 2005|08:20 am]
butressofwinser
I'm going crazy. Perhaps I was always crazy in some way but failed to realize it inspite of the total serealness of my life in Bremerton. And maybe because I was pissed drunk or avidly stoned day after day.....

"why cant I get just one kiss..."

But now that I have a river of time and I cant help but to start thinking.

Why did I do that?

I should have handles that alot better.

Stop being so damn moody.

Is there something wrong with me that I cant see?

Maybe, just for me, time will rewind and I could do everything different. Starting at the age of 3.

ewww! What the hell is that.

realness
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(no subject) [Sep. 24th, 2004|01:58 pm]
butressofwinser
[Emotional baggage |distresseddistressed]
[Funky Grooves |None]

Damn, This week has gone to Shit. Tomorrow is end fest and I dont know who i am going with or how i am getting there. I havent seem ADAm for a long ass time.

Adam: I need ya!

Dustin is sitting next to me listening to music and such.

Eh What the fuck.
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